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"There is some blue sky! Let us chase it!"

O Me! O Life

Oh me! Oh life! of the questions of these recurring,
Of the endless trains of the faithless, of cities fill’d with the foolish,
Of myself forever reproaching myself, (for who more foolish than I, and who more faithless?)
Of eyes that vainly crave the light, of the objects mean, of the struggle ever renew’d,
Of the poor results of all, of the plodding and sordid crowds I see around me,
Of the empty and useless years of the rest, with the rest me intertwined,
The question, O me! so sad, recurring—What good amid these, O me, O life?

                                       Answer.
That you are here—that life exists and identity,
That the powerful play goes on, and you may contribute a verse.

Summer

Summer means more Alex time. The bad thing about having more Alex time is that I get very critical of myself because I just live in my head. Which is fine…sometimes I need SOMEONE to get me back on track.

I had a whole school year where the focus was my classroom. Every waking moment was dedicated to what was going on with my kids. There was barely any Alex time. If there was Alex time it was just to get me out of my work fog. Sure, I went to Yoga. But that just took the edge off for a second. I started couch to 5k… it was a good way to break up my week and feel like I was doing something other than living in my classroom. 

Now its summer time…the moment we’ve all been waiting for.

And its like I just woke up from a deep sleep. And I’m disgusted with the place. What the hell? Who let it get this way? Its 2am and you decided to eat chicken fingers from a box? You drank SODA??? WHAT?! Have you lost your mind?!?! Why is there a rotting avocado in your fridge? Is there ANY form of vegetable in your crisper? AND WHAT IS THAT SMELL???

Jesus.

What. is. going. on.

So….I joined www.bucketlist.org and added to my list “Run a 5K”…I set a goal date cuz………thats what people do. I added a few other things. This is supposed to be a summer where I get to do all the stuff I say I can’t do during the school year….so why am I just napping all the time? I’m glad you marathoned  ”Orange is the New Black” and “The Paradise”…..good for you….I guess. But at least make a commitment to eat more veggies! And drink more water dammit! That fitbit was working wonderfully during the school year…..GET OFF YOUR BUTT AND REACH THOSE STEP GOALS. 

Christ.

We all change when you think about it. We’re all different all through our lives. And that’s okay, that’s good. You’ve got to keeping moving. As long as you remember all the people that you used to be.
Dr. Who

(Source: google.com)

Be brave. Even if you’re not, pretend to be. No one can tell the difference. Don’t allow the phone to interrupt important moments. It’s there for your convenience, not the callers. Don’t be afraid to go out on a limb. That’s where the fruit is. Don’t burn bridges. You’ll be surprised how many times you have to cross the same river. Don’t forget, a person’s greatest emotional need is to feel appreciated. Don’t major in minor things. Don’t say you don’t have enough time. You have exactly the same number of hours per day that were given to Pasteur, Michaelangelo, Mother Teresa, Helen Keller, Leonardo Da Vinci, Thomas Jefferson, and Albert Einstein. Don’t spread yourself too thin. Learn to say no politely and quickly. Don’t use time or words carelessly. Neither can be retrieved. Don’t waste time grieving over past mistakes Learn from them and move on. Every person needs to have their moment in the sun, when they raise their arms in victory, knowing that on this day, at his hour, they were at their very best. Get your priorities straight. No one ever said on his death bed, ‘Gee, if I’d only spent more time at the office’. Give people a second chance, but not a third. Judge your success by the degree that you’re enjoying peace, health and love. Learn to listen. Opportunity sometimes knocks very softly. Leave everything a little better than you found it. Live your life as an exclamation, not an explanation. Loosen up. Relax. Except for rare life and death matters, nothing is as important as it first seems. Never cut what can be untied. Never overestimate your power to change others. Never underestimate your power to change yourself. Remember that overnight success usually takes about fifteen years. Remember that winners do what losers don’t want to do. Seek opportunity, not security. A boat in harbor is safe, but in time its bottom will rot out. Spend less time worrying who’s right, more time deciding what’s right. Stop blaming others. Take responsibility for every area of your life. Success is getting what you want. Happiness is liking what you get. The importance of winning is not what we get from it, but what we become because of it. When facing a difficult task, act as though it’s impossible to fail.
Jackson Brown Jr. (via at-kkoolook)

I always play this song but I’m feelin’ it again.

"Let this be our little secret
No one needs to know we’re feeling
Higher and higher and higher
Higher and higher and higher

But I feel alive, oh, I feel it in me
Up and up we keep on climbing
Higher and higher and higher
Higher and higher and higher.”

(Source: Spotify)